Thoughts of a Sprite

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

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Well I am headed to the pool tonight! Yeah, finally some peace for me. There is nothing like glideing through the water, getting into the rythym of your stroke, feeling the water softly slap against your hands and feet as you propel yourself through the cool crisp calm of the pool, getting near the end, flip, and push off the wall, the power from your muscles is the only thing keeping you going. I simply cannot wait! No conversation to try to keep up with, just time to think, reflect, or completely zone out and just concentrate on swimming!

As some of you know this also means that the man I am seeing has once again decided his life is too busy to share his time with me tonight. But tonight I am relieved, as I would much rather be in the pool than in his arms. I simply need time for me! It has been 13 days since I last spent time with him socially. Yes and our 8 week mark was only yesterday. I am trying to be patient, because he does make me so very happy when we are together. My friend has been through a very similar situation, and she is very happy now as well, but I can see what all she has had to go through, and though the ultimate benifits are worth it, it is a long hard road ahoe, and I don't know if I am as strong as she. I am slightly depressed about it I think. Oh well, life goes on!

As far as New Years resolutions go, I have vowed to get back into the pool, which I am keeping. I have vowed to start eating healthy again. I should not have a problem with this either, it was just a matter of not having anything at my mom's house to take for lunch. As most know, I am a huge fresh veggie eater. I am also going to try and clean up my language some. I feel that a person is only as classy as the present themselves, and profanity just is not very classy. And finally, I am going to drink more water. This is really just an extinuation of my eating Healthy plan, but I wanted to not it, because it is a hard thing to do. Oh and the big one, I am once again trying to quit... yes folks, I slipped up about two weeks ago, and have been steadily smoking ever since... I did pretty good yesterday, and I have every intention of quitting... but it is an addiction and it is very hard. I have the patch, and hopefully I will start tomorrow a brand new day. Yesterday I had none until about 10:30... I think the patch ran out or something... and I worked 15 hours, and just grrrrr..... and that was it, i gave in... no excuses, I was weak. I will beat it, though!

Well that is about all for me, as I just don't want to get any further detail on the whole guy situation... It is like opening a black hole, that I just don't want to get sucked into right now.

TTFN and hope everyone had a very Happy New Year!

shes_a_sprite @ 1:57 PM.

1 comments

Rachel said...

Good for you, we all need some time to ourselves, and what a great way to do it. Hang in there darling. :)

4:30 AM